Well this is a response to all my friends who have sent me notes caring about my health. First of all I have to admit that nothing’s going so well, I cannot control my weight loss and I’m not in a good mood at all. At the moment I prefer to quit my relations with all my friends for taking some time to put things right, for protecting them from watching my fall. I’m not so sure if this will work out or not. But I know that I have to do the same also for deviantart, because all of my latest deviations I’ve uploaded today are really depressive ones and I’m bored of expressing how much pain I feel inside, how much I suffer. I’m quitting deviantart until the moment I can produce something positive.
So this journal is written to say goodbye to all the deviant friends, who supported and encouraged me all the time.
I love you all,
Bye
Look at me now, I've got no religion
Look at me now, I'm so vacant
Look at me now, I was a virgin
Look at me now, grew up to be a whore
And I want it
I believe it
I'm a million different things
And not one you know
back on my feet again
eyes open to the real world!
don't tell me what's in
don't tell me how to write
don't tell me how to win this fight
it isn't your life!
it isn't your right to take the only thing that's mine
proving all the time
it's over your head
don't try to read between the lines
i clearly defined
never lose sight of something you believe in
taking in the view from the outside
through the light beyond the dark
i've been trying to justify you
in the end i will just defy you
to those who understand
i extend my hand
to the doubtful i demand
take me as i am
not under your command
i know where i stand
i won't change to fit your plan
take me as i am
as i am
still running uphill
swimming against the current
i wish i weren't so fucked
feel's like i'm stuck
lost in a sea of mediocrity, so
you, you're thinking too much
where is your soul?
you cannot touch the way i play
or tell me what to say
you're in the way of all that i believe in
taking in the view from the outside
through the light beyond the dark
i've been wasting my breath on you
open minds will descend upon you
to those who understand
i extend my hand
to the doubtful i demand
take me as i am
not under your command
i know where i stand
i won't change to fit your plan
take me as i am
:)
